I just feel that it amuses you. Make me feel even more pathetic.

I don't need you to make me pathetic, I'm already a monster. Stop complaining. It's 06:00 PM and I need a cig but I can't because my mother's at home and I have so much respect for her so I don't want smoking in front of her. So I have to wait for 09:00 PM. I feel empty tonight. Empty and jaelous but there are bad feelings.

Tonight I'll go to the "Accad" to see my friends. I'm in a hurry it will make my bad feelings desappear. For a moment I hope.